I’m so thankful for the friends that I have in my life, including the ones I’ve met through here
It seems like one thing after another, once one thing goes wrong everything else collapses too. I was so happy for the first time in a very long time, if ever. This is the first time that I’ve really put my trust into someone and let myself be vulnerable. You told me things and acted like you never told them to anyone before. As if you and I were becoming close already. You made me feel like you really cared about me and you knew that was something I had never had before. You gave me what you knew I desperately needed and desired and then so cruelly took it away for no reason. I did everything I could to try and show you how much I cared about you, I put you before me in every opportunity I could, I put you first no matter what. I blindly followed you and listened to no one else, risking good friendships because I wanted to believe they had it all wrong. How could they help themselves now but to say “I told you so” when they called every move before you made it? I always put my trust into the wrong person but I so desperately had hoped that this time I had made the right decision. That this was the universe finally telling me that things are turning around, that everything is going to be okay. I should have never gotten so invested, especially so soon, but I gave you more than I ever gave anyone before. As much as I tried to pretend it meant nothing to me, it meant more than even I understood. Had you never put forth the effort to turn it into something more, I would have been fine. I wouldn’t have expected anything more and I wouldn’t have gotten my hopes up. But thanks for being my first experience, one I’ll never forget, and one I’ll probably never fully get over.